2007 is here and its a closure to 2006 can say that its rather a very scary year for me and family.. imagine we lost 2 of our close ones within a week at november.. the pain and sorrow that we went through is really hard and till today its still fresh inside my mind.. my past christmas and new year was always celebrated with my grandma.. at least we would gather at either woodlands or ubi to have a simple meal.. but for 2006 its different i was with my friends for christmas eve though its a new expreience but i was not that happy i really wish that i could once again celebrate it with grandma and my family.. and for new year's eve yest i was struck with flu and though my fen asked me to join her to countdown but i didnt joined her and actually rot at home for the whole day.. i really do not have the mood to go out and dun wan to spoil mood and ended up was toking to ah ma on the phone and started to miss grandma again.. guess we really need sometime to get this over.. but its rather hard..
then for today new year day it was our rhq 1 new year gongyo.. but i dun dare to go initially as i was rather afraid that the past memory with grandma with come to mind again and to oso to see the rest of the members.. not that i dun wanna see them but is i really dunno wad to say when i see them.. however, i still make it for the gongyo cause i receive a sms from senoir which really encouraged me so much and i made the first step to ica for the new year and though i was late i think its something that i wanna do... but upon reaching tears rolled down my checks.. its so hard to controlled how i wish grandma was juz beside me all the while.. i really wish that time could stayed back when she is healthy.. but i was told to move on cause grandma will always be in my heart and i'm sure after sometimes i can walk up of this ordeal and start a fresh..
After the ICA i went back to grandma house to do my New Year Gongyo and stayed that for awhile then proceed to harbour front to meet zr and ma for planning.. but ma got crop up with somethings last min so only left me and zr so after planning we went to shop at vivo.. and can say that the place is big.. with lots of things.. it was really a good short break for today after a very emotional morning..
And actually through here i would like to show appreciation to some people.. my ah ma,mummy,bro, my aunts, uncle and cousin where we have fought through a tough battle together as one.. my cartoon gers(fen,xia,xin,jess and qing) who are always juz a call away.. my c2 darlings(chels, da jie, kat, aloy, da ge, da sao and many more) who will constantly encourage and tolerated me alot.. zhenru, may ann who is constantly there to encourage, remind and there for me.. tpsd,SD, katong chap and all my gakkai friends who are there to support me and my family.. thanks alot.. all the appreciation could not be all phrased by words.. give me sometime the usual weixin will be back after a period of time.. and Happy New Year to all..