loss hope in everything... coming to say that.. i have all the freedom that i always wanted.. but i'm not happy.. i can buy things that i like but i'm still feeling empty... i can do wadever things i wan but i'm sad... felt extremly sad today... feel like talking to someone.. but there is no someone.. my life is juz an empty well so dry... lifeless... i dunno how long i can tolerate this... tolerate this feeling... this me.. this empty me this lonely me.. i see no joy in the future.. i wan to go back to 2 years ago where i have a happy family.. where the stupid me dunno how to appreciate.. dunno how to treasure.. both of them are gone.. forever... i'm all alone here there goes my second home.. the place that i always thought its a prison.. i find it boring there.. a waste of my time to be there but now... i'm wasting my own time trying to recollect the memories... where i rememeber that i was rude, i was impatient.. i didnt not appreciate.... i miss my grandparents.. i got no where to go.. i do not have a place to contain this lonely me.. no one to talk to.. everything is fake.. why dun both of you just bring me along... i hate life.. totally hate... at the end of the day you will still be alone...
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its been once again long long time no blog le.. haizz me now involved with chingay to help out.. all along wanted to join chingay and this time round was given a chance by the chiefs.. intially was very worried about taking up this challenge.. scare that i cant commit myself 100% to it.. but on the other hand thought that if not now when? i will never be ready.. so here i am to challenge myself to break through my limits.. have been a coward for long long time le.. no passion no commitments no responsibility to watever i do.. need to breakthrough this i really do.. guess the only remedy is daimoku daimoku nothing else can cure this i must not be lazy.. no no no... but.. its been like only 2 weeks through and my sanshoshima is acttacking me le.. came in all the way and started to built barrels round me... going to conquer me.. and this time round i will say no to it.. i'm going to overcome it.. i wanna have my grandma's spirit in my life wad she always say to me.. ku lai ku dang, le lai le shou.. i wan to have a beautiful victory in my life i wan to see a change in me by 2008.. i want to have a victory report to my life a true victory that i win and i will win.. no matter wad i'm nothing will fear me.. nothing will stop me.. her spirits will live with me and win together with me.. she will always be there for me and i know it.. but still wants to niam abit la.. realised that these feel days my attitude was bad.. really bad.. especially at work.. this should not be the way.. but i feel very sianzz le.. think muz have a good thought about it... how can i excel in watever i do.. have been in some deep thoughts.. is this wad i want? or am i too afraid to leave cause i'm too use to this comfort zone so i never want to take the first step? am i doing something that i really like?? or am i giving up half way through? me not sure.. think need to reconsider wad i really wan...

another week had juz passed and i realized that i'm so ultra tired.. wanted to go back to work very much but at the end of my mind there is someone telling me that i should juz rot away my day today.. work load has been piling more and more started to feel abit suffocated.. but no choice its a transimission period now, got to tahan abit till the new staff is here... hope that wo hai chen de xia qu.. waiting patiently for next sat to come and i'm going to have a short break liao... off i will go to KL to recharged myself... and will come back to chiong again..

since the day she left us my life changed totally.. though its about 8 months already but i still missed her.. sometimes when i'm out enjoying stuffs she came into my mind.. why i dun have the chance to let her enjoy with us.. had a wonderful dinner tonight with ah gong bernard the food was fantastic but while eating.. actually she came into my mind.. how i wish i can bring her to this resturant for the wonderful lobster that she loves most... though now our financial situtation is better but i'm not as happy as before.. in some way or another i felt lost and empty and its truly empty that i couldnt imagine... wad can i do.. there is no one i can speak too.. no one for me to express how i feel like before... she is actually the person that tolerates me most and listen to how i feel the most.. she is my grandma, my friend, my mentor and like my mother.. I MISS YOU GRANDMA!!! WHERE HAVE YOU GONE TOO!!! PLEASE BE SOMEWHERE AROUND ME!!! I NEED YOU YOU YOU YOU!!!!

had been working for about 4 weeks already.. yup found job le.. an import assistant at schenker..can say that its a new challenge for me.. cause i really noe nuts about it and still on the job training now.. but can say that the things that i learn there is alot and i liked this job alot... however had been facing a few problems this few days that i really makes me feel so tired of myself and this family... felt that is so so hard to breathe in here.. and maybe some changes should be done.... cny is approaching and i do not feel excited at all... haizzzz...

2007 is here and its a closure to 2006 can say that its rather a very scary year for me and family.. imagine we lost 2 of our close ones within a week at november.. the pain and sorrow that we went through is really hard and till today its still fresh inside my mind.. my past christmas and new year was always celebrated with my grandma.. at least we would gather at either woodlands or ubi to have a simple meal.. but for 2006 its different i was with my friends for christmas eve though its a new expreience but i was not that happy i really wish that i could once again celebrate it with grandma and my family.. and for new year's eve yest i was struck with flu and though my fen asked me to join her to countdown but i didnt joined her and actually rot at home for the whole day.. i really do not have the mood to go out and dun wan to spoil mood and ended up was toking to ah ma on the phone and started to miss grandma again.. guess we really need sometime to get this over.. but its rather hard..

then for today new year day it was our rhq 1 new year gongyo.. but i dun dare to go initially as i was rather afraid that the past memory with grandma with come to mind again and to oso to see the rest of the members.. not that i dun wanna see them but is i really dunno wad to say when i see them.. however, i still make it for the gongyo cause i receive a sms from senoir which really encouraged me so much and i made the first step to ica for the new year and though i was late i think its something that i wanna do... but upon reaching tears rolled down my checks.. its so hard to controlled how i wish grandma was juz beside me all the while.. i really wish that time could stayed back when she is healthy.. but i was told to move on cause grandma will always be in my heart and i'm sure after sometimes i can walk up of this ordeal and start a fresh..

After the ICA i went back to grandma house to do my New Year Gongyo and stayed that for awhile then proceed to harbour front to meet zr and ma for planning.. but ma got crop up with somethings last min so only left me and zr so after planning we went to shop at vivo.. and can say that the place is big.. with lots of things.. it was really a good short break for today after a very emotional morning..

And actually through here i would like to show appreciation to some people.. my ah ma,mummy,bro, my aunts, uncle and cousin where we have fought through a tough battle together as one.. my cartoon gers(fen,xia,xin,jess and qing) who are always juz a call away.. my c2 darlings(chels, da jie, kat, aloy, da ge, da sao and many more) who will constantly encourage and tolerated me alot.. zhenru, may ann who is constantly there to encourage, remind and there for me.. tpsd,SD, katong chap and all my gakkai friends who are there to support me and my family.. thanks alot.. all the appreciation could not be all phrased by words.. give me sometime the usual weixin will be back after a period of time.. and Happy New Year to all..

its been about 2 weeks already since grandma leave us.. but it doesnt seems that i'm any better.. dun have the motivation or mood to do anything.. even playing, gakkai, browsing the net and going out with friends dun seems to attract me.. guess i'm really falling into my own world.. i thought i could overcome it and lead my life like the past but memories seems to be with me now and then.. didnt realise that actually i'm such a weakling.. have always thought that i'm strong but not anymore my tears are always flowing uncontrollably i noe that alot of friends are very concern about me and worried but pls give me sometime i will be alright soon.. been thinking where is grandma now, wad is she doing, is she happy or is she juz around me.. really hope to see, hear and feel her once more.. the memories of how she took care of us, how she chant, how she encourage memebers, how she turn our yellow dirty laundry into pure white and how she cook great dishes for us.. dun even dare to call ah ma cause it usually end up when we talk about grandma and start crying.. got to see this poem and feel that it really suit my situation now its about a seagull.. here it goes.. My foot does not separate from the ground, I'm simply afraid, I'm afraid to fly to the sky, because I'm use to the ground, I'm unfamiliar to the sky, do I have the wings, Do I have the dreams of before? it really seems to be talking about right now without grandma now it seems to leave the ground to the new sky where i'm so unfamiliar without her in the future and actually all my dreams are dashed now..

went cycling yesterday with zhenru at east coast.. its been a long long time since i have so relax.. but in the midst of cycling grandma comes into my mind and go.. however tried very hard to keep the feelings in me cause i did not wanna spoil mood and the spirit guess i'm starting to learn and control myself.. say dun miss grandma is fake wan la.. as long as sometimes i'm alone i feel like touching her and toking to her.. after cycling went to parkway to shop awhile before meeting may ann.. and we went to a place that i thought i would never think of for shopping "little india" its so funny to shop and we are racist i can say.. we went there and i guess i cant suit the food there so ended up i went to eat chinese fried rice at little india so wu liao right but nvm la.. after that the 3 of us proceed to mustafa.. its may ann and my first time there cant imagine how big the place is so fascinating so so much things they sell there and its cheaper then outside range.. and its open for 24hrs.. i felt so sua ku when i'm there and though my legs at that time was so so tired after my cycling i still manage to drag myself to shop for bout 3hrs before leaving.. enjoyed myself so much.. however, i missed the makan sessions with my cartoon gers.. cause i meet zr and ma le ma.. shall meet you all soon.. and the funniest part is when i reached home that someone that i dun wanna care for since 25th nov ask me whether i got angry or scold him secretly..but i did really see human nature and the bad side of human through alot of things for the past few weeks and day as mentioned before.. haizz sad muz keep reservations so i shall not elaborate much but deep in my heart i wanna tell that someone is do not compare humans, do not care for yourself too much and dun assume.. but its ok because of my grandma i will tolerate cause there is a saying you wan to know whether your pass away family memeber is happy and xing fu?? then you muz be happy and xing fu..

its been a week since grandma passed away.. cant imagine that time passes so so fast.. but the memories in my mind doesnt seems to be washed away day by day but it seems that i'm starting to miss her more and more... haizz... i oso dunno i one day need to cry how many times tears juz flow out none stop i noe i should not be in this way but its very hard to control and do not compare me with others, i am who am i thats the way.. i miss that times i changed her diapers, i fed her meals, i apply body lotion on her, i massage her and of course how i teased her and she would juz smile... and definatly when we have our heart to heart talk how she will console me.. i can vow that she is the best grandma on earth and the best i had... i love her always i really do.. and oso here i would like to thanks my friends who attended the funeral cartoon family,eric, karine, bren, dylan and my gakkai friends... kat, aloy, karyn,chels, da ge, da sao, zhenru, may ann who gave all the way out to help me, console me and oso for your shoulder to let me cry on.. i really appreciate it deep from my heart... which words cant describ... i oso have my lesson learnt do not put too much hope on certain things and 0s0 have some reservations for yourself... dun be too naive because you might be giving all your way out but others might not think so... i need to grow up and see things in a bigger and clearer view... GRANDMA I MISS YOU!!!



grandma and me



our last family photo =(

my dearest beloved grandma passed away peacefully on 25th november 2006 at 5.55am.. she had been fighting with her illness for 4 months and i can say that she is a real winner cause she actually was to pass away a month ago but she survived through..right now i'm very lost i really dunno wad is going to happen next and wad should i do next.. everyone asked me not to be sad but its rather hard.. imagine i have been with her for 4 months and its seeing her everyday.. how to not miss her.. seeing her lying inside the casket and been pushed into creamination how am i suppose to not be sad... i cant help it but to cry.. i felt so helpless.. she is such a wonderful woman a woman without temper and always showered us we love and care.. i'm really gonna miss her.. I LOVE YOU GRANDMA!!!!

grandma is in the hospital again.. haizz.. this time round dunno how long she needs to stay again.. really hope that she will be better soon.. and the most important thing is that her leg to recover soon.. nothing is more important than this.. really hope that the CT scan results would be good cant bear to see her suffer more le.. and the most "sour" thing that happen today is that she wants us to send her to the homes.. cause she do not wan to be a burden to us.. haizzz.. dunno why.. isit that the way that i took care of her is not good enough or wad.. but nvm we wont send her de.. no matter wad i will fight with her till the last and will stay with her.. definatly will not leave her in the lurch.. i love her so much...

went to meet up with my dear sister juz now.. ah fen.. she is always the person that i wanna meet up once i got the time and really talk to her.. always got lots and lots of cant finish topics between us.. hehe.. enjoy my short but meaningful meet up with her and oso wanna thank my cartoon family to be more and more understanding about my busy schedule.. gers i really miss you all so much!!!! i will definatly meet up with you all once i have the chance.. i promise...

haven been blogging for 1 months plus le... haizzz not i dun wan but its because too many things happen for the pass 1 month... first of all grandma is sick.. and the illness that is stuck on her is really a very very bad illness... I HATE CANCER!!! its torturing grandma like mad.... all of us nearly gone bonkers when we first know that grandma is stuck with the stupid illness and on top of that grandpa is not cooperating with us... he fell and was admitted to the hospital at the same day really tired with all this things happening at the same time man... felt so SUFFOCATED!!! intially thought that i might not be able to walk out from this irritating problems... but luckily through all the encouragements and support given by my friends i finally stand up and got over these issues!!! BUT GUESS WHAT??? I LOST MY HP TODAY!!! and the main PROBLEM is that i'm not the one who lose it!!! ARGHHHH!!!! its a bloody long story!!!! and the worse thing is that this HP is a gift from grandma for my 21st birthday!!! i'm really sad!!! and i wanna vent anger but i cant!!! wad can i DO!!!! I miss my phone!!!! hope that person who took it away will treasure it nicely!!!! Its a really meaningful gift!!! sobzzz!!!

went to attend the gosho study meeting yesterday.. and before that met up with the ywd cics for dinner.. was really very happy to have dinner with them yesterday.. guess its been a long time since i last met them up for dinner and go for meeting together.. guess for the pass few months i really forgotten wad i wan at my prime point and wad was my initial resolution?? guess i really realise it yesterday when i had dinner with them.. i felt so happy and relax.. at that moment i really got the feel of the past cics days.. its really wonderful and all the initial concerns that was in my mind was actually not a problem.. haha.. guess with all their support tpsd will grow and i'm sure that right now with the new departure from yesterday onwards tp will have a successful outdoor event on sunday.. i'm really looking forward for it.. tpsd jia you!! jia you!!!

have been browsing my blog again and again felt that i really like this skin.. kekezz hope that i can be as brave as this lion and my heart like the lion's heart.. i muz be courageous in everything i do and oso to be brave.. and i'm sure i can... went to have a tok with my buddy yest.. in fact i enjoy the times where we have a heart to heart dialogue.. felt simply relaxed and happy to tok to her memories of the past juz come back to me the support of my buddy is simply juz as important and i'm sure without my cartoon gers.. i will not have gone so far.. though i'm the one that always miss gatherings and they may always need to see my timing and book me and the meeting i have may be alot and have some last min cancelling of plans for them.. though they say dun mind and its ok but i really feel bad at times.. haha i know they will understand la but will oso wan me to be with them.. but i really appreciate their kind understanding.. hmm.. have been pondering alot this week i have my dream job.. and its still pending now and i know that i muz face the reality will be going for another interview tmr.. i cant possibly wait and wait.. will try it out tmr and see how guess its another decision for me to make... lets see how it goes ba.. i'm oso very happy that i got great commrades.. whenever i'm down or i have problems they will be there for me.. haha.. so fortunate.. guess with all these friends and commrades i will be able to go even further.. and oso i muz really fufilled my mission in tpsd.. though i know that its gonna be challenging and things are happening at not wad we wan.. but i'm sure we can overcome it no matter wad.. i'm sure another history would be created.. pls jia you.. we muz fight on!!!!

its been a long long time since i last blog.. now i have my new blogskin its mine return liao.. =) i have been unemployed for so long liao.. hehe.. its about a month or so.. i'm broke.. totally out of cash.. haizz not i dun wanna work its juz that i'm waiting for my dream job.. i juz had some hope le.. i dun think i will give it up half way from now.. i will wait for a week or so.. then i will decide how.. haha.. no choice la.. its really my dream and i have actually decided to take on this challenge le.. but luckily i always have my sistas and great commrades beside me to really encourage me and to be there for me.. though i have not been working for the past month but i oso did quite alot of things.. and i actually put myself into gakkai and oso for my friends.. but i actually still met with some pro... i still get the same time management pro and they oso notice that my temper had been bad.. i dunno why but guess is the questions on why you still not working arh?? and you not looking for jobs arh??.. actually affects me alot.. haizz then i got no choice ma its my li xiang.. i know alot of pple is thinking that i'm too stubborn and all.. however i told myself i got a date line to meet i will see how by end of this week.. i got to try something out.. oso met with some challenges be it with my health, friends and gakkai,, its seems that everything is so so messy i cant handle them well.. haizz dun even know wad happen and my back muscles was teared and now the pain comes and goes whenever it likes.. i always crash my meetings with my cartoon gathering and it reallys pains me.. cause shou xing shi rou shou bei ye shi rou.. i oso dunno wad to do but really hope that i can breakthrough this situation and really win in my life.. pls bear with me for the time being i will always try my best de.. its been a tough time right now for tpsd.. everything seems to be tough and there are certain things that we juz cant tie down and oso to break through i guess we reall need to work extra hard together as an institution with the same thinking so that we can win!!!

More Pictures... =)


its Shopping Time


letS pOse!!!


See Wad See!!!!


Best Buddiess..


Ice-cream Time!!!!


M3 and Ling @ kuKup


cousinsss @ Chalet

haha.. its been a long time since i have updated my blog.. cause i have been waiting for my 21st birhtday photos to arrive and yeah!! i got it le.. yesterday from my dearest xiao ge aloy... kekezz he was my camera man on that day... thanks alot.. was really happy on that day cause my dream of having my own birthday party was finally granted by my dearest ah ma.. though it rained in the afternoon but luckily it stopped and it was all thanks to my cousin ah ling it stopped in time.. then the party went on smoothly.. all my family and friends were there and the most happiest thing is that they all enjoyed the cake and the food and yesh i love my cake to the max... =)



My one and only 21st birthday cake!!!


Make A wish!!!


Time to cut it le!!!


My closest onezz!!


My big Family!!!


My C2 Darlingzzz


TpSd ComMRAdess


Katong Gersss


The cake that Cartoon Gers bought for me =)


Its My Cartoon Gers!!!

i'm abit kang cheong now... tmr is my first day of work... haha.. finally kanna employed le.. thought i may be unempolyed till may.. bit didnt expect it to come so first.. i went in for interview at 2pm and at 2.16pm the co called me up and ask me to report tmr... wohoo.. its so fast lo... cant imagine that i willl kanna employed so soon... thought that it will take me awhile.. that means that i cant slack le.. hehezz.. but its ok cause i oso sick of slacking le.. though the pay is not that much but its ok.. i will start slowly step by step i will work towards my goal... yeah... however, i really can feel my good fortune lo... its so near my place its at tampines.. its so near gaikan.. its so near tp... all my prayers are answered... its a job that requires me to meet pple which is wad i wanted.. :p haha wad can i expect more?? meanwhile i will oso continue to work hard towards my goal... things happen for a reason right??? yeah!! wish me luck tommorrow wor... meet up with bren today after the interview and indeed it was a wonderful time when i update things to her and told her lots of things... hehezz.. thanks pal... when i meet you i tend to miss tp... and i think without you in tp my three years is going to suffer man... see ya soon gal.. miss ya..

i went momo with my cartoon gers laast wednesday and indeed it was a very wonderful night where the six of us chill together and had a very great catch up.. i simply love them to the max... they are my the other part of life without them my life will not be so colourful too.. kekezzz...(more photos to upload soon :p)

TPSD Graduation and Orentation(08/04/2006)
it was a wonderful event man... the attendance can say was great and everyone did enjoyed themselves.. i juz simply feel great when i see all the members and cics enjoying themselves.. guess all the hard is paid off.. all the long preparations is worth it... and the food was juz nice and thanks alot to jessie who came to help us up... though it rained for the first part but i guess its juz a challenge for us to overcome and indeed the spirit that we had really put the rain to a full stop and the weather was perfectly fine... something interesting happen and i really felt that its great to have the ice break and it is really another victory for me.. and though right now i feeling some devilish function and external function acting on me however i will continue with my mission cause for kofu is for the sake of the others happiness and mine so i will not give up.. no matter wad the particular one wants to have for me and wad obsticales is there for me i will strive on i will treat it as a challenge!!!! i will make sure my missions are fulfilled... my dearest TPSD will grow grow and grow!!! jia you!!!

wahaha.... guess wad cartoon family is really gonna plan a holiday together and it will be on august at redang... wohooo... its a place where we always wanted to go since secondary sch haha.. yeah... our first trip you know?? although we are onli going on august but i dunno why all of us was damn excitied le lo.. it seems that we are going next week?? kekezz... met up with fen, xia and jessie to bristish council cause xia wanna go register then after that fen jio us go momo.. hehez.. since got chance to go me and jessie sure wont resist wan la.. the of course we went with fen and fen friend yijia, hui yun and lynn was there too... it was fun man.. and we played till round 4am and reached home at 5am.. wa.. so long never clubbed till so late le.. but nvm la long long once ok de la... kekez...it was fun man.. we dance for straight 3 hours sia and our miss jessie lee once again was the joke of the day.. haha you know i know can le... then thought got memorial prayer meeting on sun at ten i couldnt make it cause me overslept.. haizz pai sae leh.. however.. i did went to city hall to have my planning meeting with my fellow commardes and we did have a wonderful time and indeed tpsd is gonna grow grow and grow and 1the programmes that we are going to have would be more and more le.. i'm looking forward to it.. :)

my whole body is aching like wad and i can hardly move my shoulders and arms... why isit like this... haha all thanks to wild wild wet... i went there with my dearest cartoon family on sunday.. and the clever me thought that ah lu will bring sun tan or sun block lotion so i no need and the clever ah lu feel that the weather was wonderful and didnt bring any too.. and when we reach www that time the weather was really great however when it around noon time the sun starts to appear and i'm burnt like anything... wahaha red lobster.. but its ok la cause it was a great day with all my darlings and lots of people always says that www is very small and the items are limited but actually it really depends on who you go with... i go with my cartoon family hor we play from 11am to 7pm oso not enough.. wahaha and thanks to benny cause you really help us alot... kekezz.. and the most funny issue is when i found out i lost my spec.. my sista ah fen oso cant lose to me.. wahaha she oso lose her spec but i more lucky la cause my kanna found but hers still missing in the wave pool.. kekezzz haizz.. actually oso dunno why after playing for the whole day an incident made me joke of the day.. i shall not say out cause is cartoon family secret.. hahazz.. but even after we play till 7 and everyone was very very tired we still didnt wan to go home and instead we went to tm and bought lots of food and bubble tea and slack till 11 plus haha.. i love catoon family..

everyone will need friends and for me i can say that to people that can be all sorts of friends.. hi bye friends, good friends, comrades and close friends.. i can say that i'm glad that in my school days i have some hi bye friends and good friends and though after my journey in sch and tend to forget them but at least those pple had been in my part of my life before.. and for my mission that i have vowed to my mentor in life, there are oso comrades with me to fight together and to walk together towards our common goal which is to do kofu.. and through this comradeship very strong foundation of friendship had been built and it is actually the very crucial thing that we need to have for walking the road of kofu the understanding of one another and oso... to let each other know about the struggles we had gone through its meant to share among comrades.. :) besides these groups of friends and comrades i have.. there is a bunch of people that i will like to introduce to everyone... this bunch of people will be there for me when i'm down and will be always beside me.. no thank you or sorry should be said among us.. no ke qi words for us.. no doubts among us.. its because the bond we had together cant be descrip by words and sentences.. they are no other then my cartoon family.. the another part of my life.. no restraint when i'm with them, no lies and no shyness.. in front of them i'm juz a piece of plain paper.. i will not be shy will not be pai sae i will juz say wad i wan.. i will juz do wad i wan.. i will juz let my tears flow in front of them if i need to.. i will burp as loud as i wan.. i wan be as childish as i wan.. i will laugh as loud as i wan... they are not going to be angry with me they are not going to keep away from me.. they will accept me for who am i and they will always be there me.. they will always understand me they will always support me what ever i do.. they will let me show the other part of me no matter should it ba angel or devil.. they will readily accept it.. thanks cartoon family.. thanks ah fen, xia, xin, qing and jessie.. life wouldnt be the same with out you all.. though we cant meet up often but the sistership and bond we have its not going to be lessen.. thanks ah fen for always there for me when i needed someone most and oso to listen to my unresonable complain.. thanks luxin for invitng us to your chalet and letting me have the sense of belonging.. thanks xia for you always understanding me and the care you have for us.. thanks qing for always be the one who is agreeing with us and support us.. thanks jessie for always be the one who kanna bully by us and to act cute to bring up the spirit.. i love cartoon family!!!!

haha.. its a week since cartoon family had meet this is the pictures i took to with them... they are all my dearest darling!!! love them to MAXzzz... :) the next gathering is at luxin's chalet!! cant wait for it man!!! cartoon family ROCKzzzz !!!!


My darlingzzz!!!!


my sista(xia and me)

life long BuddIEZZ!!!

my sista ah qing!!!

it was a wonderful night on wednesday (01/03/2006) my dearest sisters finally met up after months le.. its been along time since we all of us are present we first went to MOS though it was a very big club but we left there after awhile cause found that not really suitable for us and thus we went to MOMO after that and we had lots of fun there... hahaha... we enjoyed ourselves there and had quite a number of drinks like champange, vodka ribena, tequila shooter, burbone coke, beer and bercardi... wohooo... then after that we went to seven eleven for sandwhiches and eventhough it was onli sandwhiches its so warm and yummy when the 6 of us shared it the warmness and care for cartoon family had is so sweet i love you gers to max.... hehe... after that we carried on dancing and went home round 2++ cause we all very tired le and we met up again to go ktv the next day.. it was a damn fun day cause its been a long long time since cartoon family had play so wild and for 2 solid days...

time have flied and its the third month of 2006!!! thinking aback i find that i didnt really do a great job for this 2 months!!! but luckily proud to say its gonna be a new departure for me from now personally... its oso gonna be a new departure for tpsd as we are all well prepared to fight together for kofu and we shall grow together to gain lots lots of victory... alright enough of all this victroy victory... tonight its gonna be the night that i have always be waiting for yeah!!! its a cartoon family nitezz i will get to me all my gers... its been a long long time since i met up with them.. and its not easy for us to have this chance... thinking back i guess cartoon family had not met up with full strength since 2006 had started... i really miss the days that we actully had spent together.. yeah!!! gers lets really treasure this friendship that we have cause i dun think its that easy to have such wonderful sisters around!!! cheers!!! we are going to rock MOS and MOMO tonight!!!!

its a fresh start for me starting from yesterday 18/02/2006.. it was our sd anniversary and my appointment of tpsd iic... its wad i always prayed for to really stayed back in sd after i graduate so that the i can give back my gratitue to the gohonzon and to strive harder for kofu in sd.. but during the first appointment in the afternoon i actually had alot of mixed feelings and i had been pondering for the passed few days that whether am i good enough and am i able to do wad i wanna do for tpsd.. then in the evening for the second show appointment actually the same feeling is that but thanks alot to lots of seniors who were there to encouraged me and when all the people who congratulate me for taking up this role i found out that they had even more trust in me... then i had in myself haha am i a coward? so i think now i should not keep on pondering on it le... although right now i still have this mixed feelings but i think i should just be strong and do my best in tpsd to make sure that in will grow stronger with the company of my commrades in faith.. it was also mujin graduation yesterday and though we always say that tian xia wu bu san de yan xi.. but i guess tp will juz gonna miss her and i will confirm miss her lots lots too... we also celebrated joni and zhen ru's birthday together yesterday and it was indeed very heartwarming to see everyone standing around to sing the birthday song glad that we did that as its a good opportunity for us to gather and ya the durian cake was yummy hehe... alrigth i got to go le time for me to study i'm gonna be released from exam jail in 3 days time.. bye...

haha.. major project is finally over le... did our final presentation and was bombed by all the evaluators... juz dun understand why on earth they like to bomb all the students and even we have lots evidence for them to look at they still can all the way bomb us with our vocabulary and grammer haha.. juz cant stand it le.. but its ok la finally over le no more creating websites and to do reporst right now i will onli need to concentrate on my exams which i hate to the core man... haha but this is the final round le really hope that i can clear it man... after my presentation yesterday.. suppose to go and meet jessie for dinner and slack awhile before going home but hor haha.. end up fen got meet us, qing oso got meet us lo... we went to east point cause fen wanna repair turtle hp and jessie wanna repair her hp.. then after that cause fen wanna go to changi village for ba kut teh with her family and we ended up going with her too lo.. and the ba kut teh was thumbs up leh.. haha then after that we went back to ah fen house and they end up playing majong... i then oso slack for awhile le then i went home round 12+++.. :P

haha.. chinese new year was really fun i got to meet up with all my cousins, auntie and uncle and was really a very good gathering for all of us..

for the first day of chinese new year spend the whole day travelling from nai nai house to grandma and to haig rd then back to grandma house and we stayed there for the whole day and was really fun when everyone gathered together and we talk alot...

then the second day all the cousins went to soo ling jie house for steam boat.. haha really had lots of food arh.. till we cant finish all the food and was so bloated lo kekezz.. and on top of that we still lau yu sheng which was the DIY type bought by xiao yi and it was really fun to do it with all the cousins.. kekezzz it was my first time going to soo ling jie house to ba nian and it was really fun..


The food that we are going to eat!!! yummy!!!


at soo ling jie house


its yu sheng time le!!! lao lao lao!!!

for the third day of cny very early in the morning all of us as a family went to the singapore blood bank and wanted to donate blood and i was indeed very excitied and wanted to help donate but so sad.. i cant cause hor as mentioned by the nurse my veins was too thin and the needle is too thick so i could not donate and was very dissappointed :(.. but nvm i'm going in to try again soon and the next time i'm gonna make sure that i can donate.. after he blood donation all the cousin went to tiong bahru plaza to watch i not stupid too and it was a very nice movie.. it really touches me and the hearts of many others too... thumbs up for this sucessful sg movie... after the movie all of us walk to fourth aunt house to ba nian as she juz came back from KL..

the fourth day of cny i went to meet up with kat, karyn and chels and we went to merchant court hotel for the buffet lunch and it was quite a not bad one and after that went to watch the memoirs of a geisha and though the show is long but it is oso rather meaning as it talks about how the geisha felt and the way of life that they had led...

alright this is the updates of my past few days of CNY and i will update more soon as i will still be going to bai nian for the coming weekend.. wahahaha.:) cheers!!!

today is chinese new year eve... i'm getting ready to go out and collect all my ang paos le... wahaha... there is lots of goodies and fun waiting for me.. cant wait for tommorrow to come so that i can wear my new clothes.. kekezz excitied leh... hmm.. finally got to hand in my dbis and final report yesterday le.. it was cool man.. can relax haha.. had been slogging so hard few days ago to really make sure that i can enjoy and yeah... I FINALLY COMPLETE ALL BOTH PROJECTS LE!!! hahaha really like to announce it to the whole world man.. haizz but hor was really unlucky on wednesday leh.. i fell and my knee now looks ugly lo... it bleed a lot and that cut was long and quite deep.. sobzzz.. but nvm all the bad luck will be washed away and i will have a fresh start this chinese new year!!! HORRAY!! ONCE AGAIN HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

yeah... chinese new year is round the corner le... sort of abit excited leh.. but hor got lots of assignment to be hand in so that i can enjoy leh... kekezz muz work hard la... went to sumico to make kueh lapis and chocolate cake and was damn tired lo... need to stir and stir the mixture and muz seperate the egg york from the white... cool i think after that i could be the professional egg seperator... kekezz... but lucky our product turns out to be yummy kekezzz... really now hope that new year will arrive soon that means all my sufferings of assignment would be over and yeah going to watch i not stupid 2 with all my cousin on chu 3 and going out with my C2 jie mei on chu 4 really cant wait le... ok gtg got to do my assignment and finish it asap....

yeah... after days of rain.. i finally see the beautiful and warm sun... chinese new year is approaching which means that assignment is oso coming to a due.. wahaha.. jia lak la but nvm i noe i can make it de... finally got all my CNY clothes ready got 3 polo tees and its my wants for the new year and is to get more polo tees and yeah i got it le...

Got to watch this tvb drama ten brothers lend to me by bren which is acted by guo ke yi and ling wen long who is the parents of the ten brothers who have super powers.. and through this drama i got to understand the unlimited parent love and when sibling comes together with unity they could solve problems and manage many thing without worries... the unlimited love given da xia(ling wen long) to ke-er(guo ke yi) was so unlimited that he onli want her to be happy and would do anything for her willingly without any grumble this really makes me realised that the to love someone is to be sure that you want that person to be happy... and because of the the ten brothers i oso noe that to if a couple is greatly in love they need to be together all the time but as long as their heart belongs together that is what true love is all about.. was also greatly touched by the ten brothers when they sacrificied themselves for their mum it was so touching thus for this show i think is a must to watch as it rockzzz... and right now i really like guo ke yi because her acting skill is good and she is really pretty and both guo ke yi and ling wen long is a perfect match....



went to kallang oasis yesterday to eat the taiwan porridge with my C2 bro and sis... when we got there memories of the NPD 2004 flash back again and at that point of time we realised that actually we have not been there for around a year plus or so... although the dishes and place is still the same but the feeling is totally different.. wahaha can say dat we became more closer and its definiatly yes and can say that all of us had grew older le but i'm sure the bond that all of us shared would not be weaken as time passes but it will be stronger... after the porridge it was still abit early and we went to cosy bay to have a drink we had vodka cranberry it was not too bad but abit sour.. we each had a glass and slack for awhile before going home but before we really left there we played the table soccer game if i'm not wrong haha... its me and chels vs karyn and aloy and karyn was really good at it which means that me and chels is the loser for the 2 matches... wahaha...

wa... it rained for the whole day yesterday ... although the weather was cooling and nice to sleep... hahazz but i just slacked for the whole day at home and haizz coudnt go out la the rain was really long winded haha... rain so long oso dun wanna stop lo and the ren ci charity show oso cant continue because of the man.. however, still very glad that after so many things happen in singapore's charity fund raising ren ci still get to hit the target and i'm sure that all the performance in that show is using all their effort to do their part but nothing else.... hmmm... right now i wanna update wad did i do for the pass few days....

friday(06/01/2006)
it was an enjoyable day.. went back to sch in the afternoon to play tug-of-war with all the inm students and although we lose out but haha.. inm had a chance to bond during that event.. after that went for fri dinner and we had lots of fun playing games and having some dialogue... hmmm... after that went to orchard to meet da jie, chels, kat and aloy for dinner haha... met them for awhile because i need to go off to momo to meet my sistaz (fen, xia, qing and jessie.. as luxin was sick therefore she cant join us)... yeah we are going to chill for the night.. wohooo it was damn shiok man.. we ordered 2 jugs of vodka and played five ten together and didnt realised that my luck was so lousy untill i end up losing so many times and was forced to drink man.. wahaha but nvm la i like it ma.. after that we went over to the dancefloor and danced a straight one and a half hour... wow it was damn happening lo it was so fun man all of us dance like mad.. especially me and jessie la.. haha any kind of pattern oso cum out le.. make untill fen, xia and qing like got abit malu.. but nvm la happy can liao ma... however, we need to go off earilier cause xia the next day got exam however before going home we went to simpang for yummy supper then head home at 3am.. alright now shall present you pple my pictures for that shiok night..

yeah!! is qing, fen, me and xia @ momo and poor jessie is the photographer...


Yeah!!! my dear sistazzz aren't we cool??? me, qing,fen,xia.jessie


more pictures of us... muackzzz.. haha the formal picture...


four gers = a market!!!


haha we are trying to be funny!!!


Saturday (07/01/2006)
woke up at 8am although slept at 5am haha.. no choice la promise to wake xia up at 8am and wanna meet fen go to post office together so only slept for 3hrs then after ah fen was kind enough to treat me to sakae sushi for early lunch and we were so full leh... haha yummy i always love sushi and sakae of course yummy and after that we bought a box of mochi ice-cream and guess wad?? both of us finished that box which contains 15 icecream wahaha it was yummy man...

wohooo.. we finshed all the sushi le wahaha.. left wet tissue onli...


yummy!! its our favourite chocolate, strawberry and vanila favour!!!


after meeting up with fen went to tsc for tpsd preparation meeting and we had a wonderful dialogue and everything was set for our upcoming spirit boaster for chingay peformers on 14 jan... went home and wanted to catch a nap after that as i was going for eact coast gathering after that but couldnt get to sleep though was tired and straight away went out to meet chels. karyn and kat as we were going there together.. its at changi green club house and we had some buffet and games and did enjoy ourselves as we saw lots of other friends there and laugh til mad when we were playing games and after that guess wad we are satisfied and even went again to simpang for supper again and we shared stir-fried chilli clams, cockles, tissue prata, mushroom and cheese prata, plaster egg prata and milo dinosaur and was damn full and together took a cab home.. heehee!! but over those few night was shiok la... haha..

ah Xin aka aH gOi
sweet 21
17 may 1985
cURrenTlY a SlAckEr

MoRE aboUT XiN

A person who likes to plays to the fullest and is really noise however i got my quiet side de hor..tends to have a heck care attidue but actully ponder alot... especially loves her friends alot and always wanted them to be happy.. hate to be maligned by people and will blast off if is been malign.. loves the sea but cant really swim and wants to ride a bike but have not pass basic!! totally attracted to qi yu wu cause finds him really charming!!! searching for a directions now.. hope that i can do wad i want and oso to gain victories and oso breaking through to those challenges i have met!!!

XiN's LovES

my family
cartoon family
C2 suppergroup
a-DoZen
sit by the beach
sea
oRAngie coLOUr
qi yu wu

xIN's HAteS

hoR fAn
lIars
gOT maLIGn

ROAR!

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